I am a firm believer that you can send messages in songs so often times my facebook will have song lyrics dedicated to a certain someone. So this one I found while looking at lyrics is for Jak.
Adele: I'll Be Waiting
Hold me closer one more time,
Say that you love me in your last goodbye,
Please forgive me for my sins,
Yes, I swam dirty waters,
But you pushed me in,
I've seen your face under every sky,
Over every border and on every line,
You know my heart more than I do,
We were the greatest, me and you,
Jak and I spend so much time talking and just getting to know each other that I feel if it were never to work out in my favor again I would want to see him one last time just to get that sense of closure, that last hug. And to end it all on amicable terms. He didn't push me in so that line isn't true to anything. "We were the greatest me and you." Now I am gonna quote Lexi from Vampire Diaries, to Stephen Salvatore. "Yes she was an epic love, but contrary to popular belief, there is more than one person out there, especially for a vampire." While the vampire part holds nothing for me, that line kind of hit home, followed by, "All you have to do to find it, is let go." I feel like that would be the hardest part and take the longest time.
But we had time against us,
Miles between us,
The heavens cried,
I know I left you speechless,
But now the sky has cleared and it's blue,
And I see my future in you,
Time wasn't against us, it was in our favor, I was against us. But we were in a long distance relationship. And if God existed he drew us together and free will the bane of biblical existence, took us apart and God would cry, you know if he existed. Jak wouldn't talk to me, but he does now and that gives me hope, blue skies = Hope. And he is my future.
I'll be waiting for you when you're ready to love me again,
I'll put my hands up,
I'll do everything different,
I'll be better to you,
I'll be waiting for you when you're ready to love me again,
I'll put my hands up,
I'll be somebody different,
I'll be better to you,
That last one speaks for itself. I sucked. I took and didn't give him anything back when I should have.
Let me stay here for just one more night,
Build your world around me,
And pull me to the light,
So I can tell you that I was wrong,
I was a child then, but now I'm willing to learn,
Things were dark when he didn't tell me he had feelings for me. Things are dark when we don't talk so I would love to just fall back into his world as had happened everytime I flew to visit him. I had emmersed myself into every aspect of his life, Showering, I drove him to work, I picked him up from work. Took him lunch. I would admit it time and time again if it would help that he is right for me and I was wrong for leaving him. I screwed up and with every mess up a mature person learns. I would like to think that post partum, and post DB I have learned a great deal. But most of all I learned that things aren't what they appear all the time, but when You know something in your heart, believe your heart above all else.
But we had time against us,
Miles between us,
The heavens cried,
I know I left you speechless,
But now the sky has cleared and it's blue,
And I see my future in you,
I'll be waiting for you when you're ready to love me again,
I'll put my hands up,
I'll do everything different,
I'll be better to you,
I'll be waiting for you when you're ready to love me again,
I'll put my hands up,
I'll be somebody different,
I'll be better to you,
Time against us,
Miles between us,
Heavens cried,
I know I left you speechless,
Time against us,
Miles between us,
Heavens cried,
I know I left you speechless,
I know I left you speechless,
I'll be waiting,
I'll be waiting for you when you're ready to love me again,
I'll put my hands up,
I'll do everything different,
I'll be better to you,
I'll be waiting for you when you're ready to love me again,
I'll put my hands up,
I'll be somebody different,
I'll be better to you.
The rest is just things repeated. Ultimately I love him. He can't see it right now, So I am waiting, hoping he is doing a lot of soul searching, and figuring out his feelings, and I'm hoping that karma doesn't bite me for treating him so horribly. Please.... Just give me my love back. If I get him back in my arms and can have him? I will cherish him like no one else (EXCEPT AVERY) will ever know. *(And our future children)*
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